Post by Iseul on Aug 28, 2016 4:38:45 GMT
Waddup. So this is an idea that came up outta nowhere while I was literally staring at a wall. (Don't laugh at me or I s2g) Basically, it's a journal. Iseul's journal in particular. It's a book he'd write in when he was bored or something worth mentioning happened in his life during his childhood/teenager years. At first it'll seem kinda choppy and weird due to the fact that he started writing in it when he was little, and of course no kid is gonna know about commas and advanced grammar, but you're gonna deal w/ it so suck it. (And I sure as hell ain't no writer so feel free to judge the hell out of this thing.)
ISEUL'S JOURNAL
February 13th, 2000
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Hello. My name is Iseul Tai Min. I am 5 years old. I have black hair and brown eyes. I live in a big house. A lot of kids like me live there. Grandma and Grandpa watch us. Grandma said I can write in this book. I like to write and color.
February 14th, 2000
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I got a new toy today. It is a dog. He is gray and black. His name is Tevis. I love Tevis.
February 17th, 2000
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I have a friend here. He is like my little brother. His name is Miguel. Miguel is 5 years old like me. We play tag and color a lot. We made a block house today.
February 18th, 2000
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Grown up people came to the house today. Grandpa says they want to be mommies and daddies. A lot of kids get grown ups to visit them. Me and Miguel are alone in the play room today.
February 22nd, 2000
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A woman came in the house. I call her Ma’am. She said she wanted to talk to me. I want to be good so I let her talk. She is really nice. Miguel looks sad for some reason now.
February 27th, 2000
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The nice lady keeps visiting. Ma’am comes here almost every day. She says that I am a good boy and likes to hold me. I like it.
March 7th, 2000
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Ma’am visits with a man this time. He says to call him Sir. Sir is scary.
March 12th, 2000
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A new boy is staying in the house. His name is Jerry. He has brown hair and blue eyes. He is mean to me. He colored a picture of a rat. He said I look like one. I want Jerry to leave.
March 13th, 2000
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I got in trouble today. Jerry made fun of my name. He called me a bad word so I hit him. Grandpa made me stay in my room all day.
March 14th, 2000
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Ma’am and Sir came to see me. I am happy cuz Ma’am always gives me a big hug when she visits. Sir tells me about his house. He says they even have a real dog named Roma. I hope I get a real dog one day.
March 26th, 2000
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Me and Miguel play outside all day today. We even got to pet a cat! Her name is Crayon. We named her Crayon since she looks like the orange crayons we have inside. Crayon likes to visit our house a lot.
March 31st, 2000
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Today is Jerry’s birthday. He gets a green cake and new toys. Everyone likes Jerry. They play with him for the entire day. I do not know why. He is mean.
April 17th, 2000
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Sir and Ma’am said that I could live with them if I want. I like them a lot so I say yes. I will miss all of the people here. I will miss Miguel the most. I won’t miss Jerry.
May 2nd, 2000
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Sir and Ma’am have a very nice house. They gave me my own room and bought me new toys to play with. I even got to meet the dog named Roma. He is white and gray. I am very happy. Sir is nice to me and so is Ma’am. I hope that they will let me stay.
May 9th, 2000
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We went to the park today. I met a lot of other kids. I did not like them. They called me a bad word. I told Ma’am. She told me to ignore them.
May 11th, 2000
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Ma’am had a friend come to the house today. Her name is Alice. Alice has a son named Jackson. I do not like Jackson. He pushes me and says weird things. He calls me squinty eyes and asks if I know how to fight. I do not know how to fight. His mom left him at our house for a sleepover.
May 12th, 2000
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Jackson woke me up in the morning. I was very mad at him. So I hit him and made him cry. He told Sir what I did. Sir was very angry. He told me to stay in my room all day.
May 21st, 2000
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I played with Roma today. He is a very nice dog. I love Roma. He runs very fast and catches me when we play tag. I heard Sir say he is going to give him away. I do not want Roma to leave.
May 23rd, 2000
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Today Ma’am played games with me. We had a lot of fun. She says I am smart. That makes me happy.
May 25th, 2000
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I hear weird noises in the walls. They sound like someone is scratching it. Roma barks a lot now.
June 4th, 2000
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Sir was very mad today. He came in my room and took all my toys. I do not know why he took them. I am a good boy. Why did he take my toys?
June 5th, 2000
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Sir is happy today. Sir had three of his friends at our house. One is really tall. His name is Rodger. One looks like a grandpa. His name is Daniel. One is very nice. His name is Lewis. Rodger has three sons. Two of them are nice. One is stupid. His name is Leroy. Leroy is mean to me. He called me a girl. I called him fat. We got into a fight. I broke his finger. Sir locked me in my room.
June 9th, 2000
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I got in trouble today. I told Ma’am she smelled funny. Sir hit me in my face. It hurt so much I cried. He said I was lying and should shut up. But I do not lie. Ma’am smells like the grown up drinks we have in the kitchen. It stinks.
June 18th, 2000
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Sir took Roma for a walk today. They were gone for a long time. Sir came back past my bedtime. I did not hear Roma come home with him. The scratching in the wall is louder now.
June 21st, 2000
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Ma’am and Sir yell a lot. It hurts my ears. I do not know why they are mad. I miss Roma.
July 5th, 2000
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I hear the scratching all the time. Even when I sleep I hear it. I told Sir about it. He hit me and said that liars get punished. I stayed in my room all day.
July 14th, 2000
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I think the scratching is coming from my bed. I go to Sir and tell him. He looks mad. He gets one of the big knives we keep in the kitchen. Sir cuts my hand and tells me to never talk about it again.
January 3rd, 2003
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I haven’t written in this journal for a while. I’m very busy most of the time. I go to school and I like it a lot. Other kids are nice to me there.
January 4th, 2003
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I got a new book today. It’s called the Velveteen Rabbit. I read most of it but Sir came in my room and took it away before I could finish it. I really want to know what happens to the rabbit…
January 6th, 2003
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It’s my birthday today. Sir and Ma’am must’ve forgotten, since they haven’t said or given me anything. It’s okay. They are probably busy with work.
January 12th, 2003
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Sir hits me a whole lot. He says he needs to turn me into a real man. I don’t know what that means but Sir always looks very serious when he says it. He also says I do things wrong. I want to be a good son. I’ll try harder.
January 13th, 2003
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Everything hurts. Sir got mad at me again. I dropped a plate and he got so angry. I tried to tell him that I didn’t mean to drop it but he didn’t listen. Now I have a lot of purple spots on me. They remind me of the dresses Ma’am wears. I don’t see her that much anymore. I want her to hold me like she used to…. but she said I’m too big for it now.
January 16th, 2003
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Ma’am is never home when Sir brings other women into the house. There is always a different girl. They say weird things to Sir and when they see me they call me cute. But they are all ugly. I don’t understand it at all. Sir tells me to be quiet when his woman friends are around and to not tell Ma’am. I’m a good boy, so I don’t say anything.
January 19th, 2003
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Ma’am brings a man to our house today. He wears a suit and has an ugly scar on his neck. He says his name is Boss. Boss is nice to me, but I don’t know if he’s faking it or not. For some reason he calls me “Easy”. I don’t know why he does it. My name is Iseul.
February 27th, 2003
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Boss comes to our house a lot. He always brings me nice things like toy soldiers and candy. I think he and Sir are friends. They like to talk about grown up stuff and sometimes I hear them talking about me. Sir says I’m good at listening but that I like to ask a lot of questions. Boss looks happy when he says that. I still don’t understand it.
September 13th, 2003
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Sir and Ma’am say that I have to live with Boss from now on. They say that they don’t want me anymore because I do too many bad things. I cried and said I didn’t want to leave. Sir hit me again. They packed my stuff and I went home with Boss. He seems happy and he tells me about his house while we drive there. I’ve never seen someone smile as much as him.
September 14th, 2003
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Boss’s house is huge! There’s like a million rooms inside. My new room is a lot bigger than the one Ma’am and Sir gave me. A lot of people are always there but I don’t mind it. He lets me stay up as long as I want and I get to go places with him. I like Boss a whole lot.
September 19th, 2003
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Boss teaches me a lot of new things. He also shows me his special guns he has in his safe. He says I’m never allowed to touch them, but I can look as much as I want. He even tells me that my questions are good and I should always want to know more about stuff. Sir and Ma’am would never let me ask anything so I’m really glad Boss lets me.
September 20th, 2003
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Boss takes me to get my hair cut. He said my long hair makes me look like a girl and people might laugh at me. I don’t like when people laugh at me so I go with him. Short hair feels really weird.
September 21st, 2003
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A lot of people came to the house today. They all looked at me funny. Is it because of my new haircut?
September 29th, 2003
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Boss took me to a friend’s house. His friend lives very far away and I fell asleep on the way there. His friend’s name is “2IC”. I don’t think that’s his real name but I don’t say anything. He has a son named Adel. I’m afraid of him cuz he likes to look at me weird. Boss makes me stay the night at their house even though I don’t want to. But I want to be good so I say ok.
September 30th, 2003
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When Adel and I are playing in his room, he doesn’t talk much. He only tells me what to do. I don’t like when people tell me what to do. I tell him to stop it but he ignores me. So I pushed him on the ground. But Adel didn’t cry like all the other people I hit. He hit me back instead. We ended up getting into a fight and 2IC had to call Boss to come pick me up early. I was afraid because Boss didn’t look mad when he picked me up. He was smiling.
November 10th, 2003
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Boss has been teaching me even more new things. He says that if someone doesn’t do what I tell them to do then I should force them to do it. He even said that if people ask me questions I should always know the answer.
March 1st, 2006
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We’re going on a trip to Spain. I don’t know Spanish that well but Boss says that it won’t matter since we’ll only be there for two weeks. I just say whatever. Business is business.
March 3rd, 2006
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Boss and I went to some kind of party that one of his Spanish friends invited us to. It was on a big boat. It was kinda boring since only older people were there though. I just drew stuff to pass the time. I don’t know why he brings me with him to these things…
March 4th, 2006
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Some kids came up to me while I was outside today. I didn’t understand a word they were saying but they looked angry. One of them even tried to kick me. I ignored them but they just got even madder. One of them called me a “puto”. I know what that means. I beat two of the kids up and went back inside. I don’t know what I did to make them angry before but they have a reason to be now.
March 7th, 2006
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Boss left me at the hotel by myself today. The TV channels are in Spanish so I just read the books I packed. My favorite ones are The Tale of Peter Rabbit and Corduroy. I think I like Corduroy more though. I like the pictures more than the words.
March 11th, 2006
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We ended up meeting with some guy named Leo. He’s kinda ugly but don’t tell him I said that. He’s also really fat and talks loud. I don’t know if he can even hear his own thoughts up there in his head. Boss always tells me to never think badly about people but I can’t help it. He really is a stupid guy!
March 12th, 2006
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Boss left me with that Leo guy today. He has two daughters my age and I could tell they were related because they are alike in almost every way. Their names are Melanie and Patricia. Melanie was really annoying and tried to get too close to me. Boss said I’m not supposed to hit girls so I just ignored her for most of the day. Patricia was okay though. She’s really funny and didn’t make fun of my name. Apparently I’m her friend now. Her words not mine.
March 13th, 2006
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We went to church this morning. Boss told me it was a special day. He said that I was getting baptized today. I didn’t know what it meant at first but Boss told me how it works. I was really excited. I like church. All the other kids say it’s stupid and boring but I don’t see how.
March 19th, 2006
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We’re finally home. Thank God. I missed my room and my friends at school. But for some reason there’s a new man living in our house. His name is Kang and he’s really tall. Boss says that he works with him and won’t be staying very long so I shouldn’t worry about it. Other people have stayed at the house before so I don’t care.
March 22nd, 2006
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When I got home from school Boss wasn’t home. It was really strange since he’s always home to welcome me back. Kang was there instead. He looked at me weird and tried to send me to my room. But he’s not Boss so I didn’t listen. I went into the backyard to play instead.
March 29th, 2006
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Boss is almost never home and when he is he doesn’t talk to me like he used to. It makes me sad….
April 1st, 2006
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I don’t know what I did wrong. All I asked was if Boss was doing okay. He hit me. He’s never hit me before. I don’t know what I did but he looked so angry….and sad. What did I do? I’m a good boy right? At least I think I am. I do my homework and everything....so why did he hit me?
April 2nd, 2006
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I’m afraid to go out of my room. What if I get hit again? I don’t like it. I don’t. I’ll only go out of my room if Boss isn’t home. That might work. Wouldn’t it?
April 5th, 2006
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Kang came to my room today. He tried to talk to me but I didn’t respond. He talked about random stuff like his family and some stupid story about a lucky bird. I don’t know why he wants to talk to me when there are other grown-ups he could be talking to. He’s strange.
April 8th, 2006
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I ran into Boss today. I was so scared that I cried. I thought that he would hit me again but he told me that I should pay attention more and walked away. Maybe he hit me on accident before?
April 14th, 2006
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I was wrong. He did it again. I wanted to show him a picture I drew for him but he ripped it in half and pushed me. My picture must have been really bad. I should practice more.
April 20th, 2006
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I got kicked in the shoulder today. All I know is that I was reading a book in my room and then Boss came in and did it. He didn’t even say anything. My arm is starting to hurt now. I think I’ll take a nap.
May 10th, 2006
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I get hit a lot now. It doesn’t really hurt as much as it used to. It does hurt to write, though. I’ll try to write more but it’s painful so the words might look stupid.
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Damn this book is old! Looking back I was a pretty lame kid. Who the hell writes in a diary nowadays? I really shouldn’t be talking about myself though since I’m writing in it again. But I don’t really know what I should say. My life is boring, to be honest. Maybe I should write what’s happened over the past few years?
Well for starters, I found out why Boss randomly started hitting me when I was younger. Apparently the police knew way too much shit and I guess he needed someone to vent his anger out on. I should be disgusted by him for hitting a kid, but I can’t. He raised me as his own son for so long that the good overweights the bad, y’know?
Sooner or later I had to be moved somewhere else because Boss didn’t want to risk the cops finding me. When I say somewhere else I mean somewhere FAR. I ended up living with Kang for a while….in China. It’s insane, right!? Imagine moving to a country you knew NOTHING about. I didn’t even know a single word of Chinese or anything. It took a while to get used to and the food was weird, but I got a little lucky since Kang homeschooled me.
I stayed there for about two years before Kang took me back to America. (But don’t ask me to speak Chinese. I don’t remember shit.) It was a weird experience….kinda like visiting the US for the very first time. I couldn’t identify anything. I eventually asked what happened to Boss. Turns out that he had to go into hiding and nobody knows what happened to him. I was tempted to look for him, but I decided against it. I don’t like to dwell on the past anyway.
Nowadays I just kinda do whatever I want now that I live by myself. I have a “real dog” now too! He’s still a puppy but he’ll get bigger. His name is Tevis. I don’t know what happened to my toy dog I named Tevis, but I think the real deal is way better. (Even though he doesn’t listen to me I still love him.) I try to stay out of trouble but it doesn’t work very well either.
Anyways, this entry is getting pretty long and my hand hurts. I think I’ll end it here. If someone other than me is reading this book and I end up losing it or something, you can keep it. I don’t really have any reason to keep it when the memories are still fresh and will probably stay that way until I’m one of those pervy old men. (Hahaha I can just see it now!) So, I guess this story thing ends here! If I actually manage to keep this book and find it in the future maybe I’ll start writing in it again. (I hope not. I’m lame enough as it is.)
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Hello. My name is Iseul Tai Min. I am 5 years old. I have black hair and brown eyes. I live in a big house. A lot of kids like me live there. Grandma and Grandpa watch us. Grandma said I can write in this book. I like to write and color.
February 14th, 2000
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I got a new toy today. It is a dog. He is gray and black. His name is Tevis. I love Tevis.
February 17th, 2000
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I have a friend here. He is like my little brother. His name is Miguel. Miguel is 5 years old like me. We play tag and color a lot. We made a block house today.
February 18th, 2000
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Grown up people came to the house today. Grandpa says they want to be mommies and daddies. A lot of kids get grown ups to visit them. Me and Miguel are alone in the play room today.
February 22nd, 2000
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A woman came in the house. I call her Ma’am. She said she wanted to talk to me. I want to be good so I let her talk. She is really nice. Miguel looks sad for some reason now.
February 27th, 2000
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The nice lady keeps visiting. Ma’am comes here almost every day. She says that I am a good boy and likes to hold me. I like it.
March 7th, 2000
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Ma’am visits with a man this time. He says to call him Sir. Sir is scary.
March 12th, 2000
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A new boy is staying in the house. His name is Jerry. He has brown hair and blue eyes. He is mean to me. He colored a picture of a rat. He said I look like one. I want Jerry to leave.
March 13th, 2000
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I got in trouble today. Jerry made fun of my name. He called me a bad word so I hit him. Grandpa made me stay in my room all day.
March 14th, 2000
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Ma’am and Sir came to see me. I am happy cuz Ma’am always gives me a big hug when she visits. Sir tells me about his house. He says they even have a real dog named Roma. I hope I get a real dog one day.
March 26th, 2000
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Me and Miguel play outside all day today. We even got to pet a cat! Her name is Crayon. We named her Crayon since she looks like the orange crayons we have inside. Crayon likes to visit our house a lot.
March 31st, 2000
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Today is Jerry’s birthday. He gets a green cake and new toys. Everyone likes Jerry. They play with him for the entire day. I do not know why. He is mean.
April 17th, 2000
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Sir and Ma’am said that I could live with them if I want. I like them a lot so I say yes. I will miss all of the people here. I will miss Miguel the most. I won’t miss Jerry.
May 2nd, 2000
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Sir and Ma’am have a very nice house. They gave me my own room and bought me new toys to play with. I even got to meet the dog named Roma. He is white and gray. I am very happy. Sir is nice to me and so is Ma’am. I hope that they will let me stay.
May 9th, 2000
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We went to the park today. I met a lot of other kids. I did not like them. They called me a bad word. I told Ma’am. She told me to ignore them.
May 11th, 2000
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Ma’am had a friend come to the house today. Her name is Alice. Alice has a son named Jackson. I do not like Jackson. He pushes me and says weird things. He calls me squinty eyes and asks if I know how to fight. I do not know how to fight. His mom left him at our house for a sleepover.
May 12th, 2000
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Jackson woke me up in the morning. I was very mad at him. So I hit him and made him cry. He told Sir what I did. Sir was very angry. He told me to stay in my room all day.
May 21st, 2000
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I played with Roma today. He is a very nice dog. I love Roma. He runs very fast and catches me when we play tag. I heard Sir say he is going to give him away. I do not want Roma to leave.
May 23rd, 2000
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Today Ma’am played games with me. We had a lot of fun. She says I am smart. That makes me happy.
May 25th, 2000
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I hear weird noises in the walls. They sound like someone is scratching it. Roma barks a lot now.
June 4th, 2000
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Sir was very mad today. He came in my room and took all my toys. I do not know why he took them. I am a good boy. Why did he take my toys?
June 5th, 2000
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Sir is happy today. Sir had three of his friends at our house. One is really tall. His name is Rodger. One looks like a grandpa. His name is Daniel. One is very nice. His name is Lewis. Rodger has three sons. Two of them are nice. One is stupid. His name is Leroy. Leroy is mean to me. He called me a girl. I called him fat. We got into a fight. I broke his finger. Sir locked me in my room.
June 9th, 2000
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I got in trouble today. I told Ma’am she smelled funny. Sir hit me in my face. It hurt so much I cried. He said I was lying and should shut up. But I do not lie. Ma’am smells like the grown up drinks we have in the kitchen. It stinks.
June 18th, 2000
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Sir took Roma for a walk today. They were gone for a long time. Sir came back past my bedtime. I did not hear Roma come home with him. The scratching in the wall is louder now.
June 21st, 2000
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Ma’am and Sir yell a lot. It hurts my ears. I do not know why they are mad. I miss Roma.
July 5th, 2000
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I hear the scratching all the time. Even when I sleep I hear it. I told Sir about it. He hit me and said that liars get punished. I stayed in my room all day.
July 14th, 2000
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I think the scratching is coming from my bed. I go to Sir and tell him. He looks mad. He gets one of the big knives we keep in the kitchen. Sir cuts my hand and tells me to never talk about it again.
January 3rd, 2003
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I haven’t written in this journal for a while. I’m very busy most of the time. I go to school and I like it a lot. Other kids are nice to me there.
January 4th, 2003
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I got a new book today. It’s called the Velveteen Rabbit. I read most of it but Sir came in my room and took it away before I could finish it. I really want to know what happens to the rabbit…
January 6th, 2003
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It’s my birthday today. Sir and Ma’am must’ve forgotten, since they haven’t said or given me anything. It’s okay. They are probably busy with work.
January 12th, 2003
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Sir hits me a whole lot. He says he needs to turn me into a real man. I don’t know what that means but Sir always looks very serious when he says it. He also says I do things wrong. I want to be a good son. I’ll try harder.
January 13th, 2003
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Everything hurts. Sir got mad at me again. I dropped a plate and he got so angry. I tried to tell him that I didn’t mean to drop it but he didn’t listen. Now I have a lot of purple spots on me. They remind me of the dresses Ma’am wears. I don’t see her that much anymore. I want her to hold me like she used to…. but she said I’m too big for it now.
January 16th, 2003
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Ma’am is never home when Sir brings other women into the house. There is always a different girl. They say weird things to Sir and when they see me they call me cute. But they are all ugly. I don’t understand it at all. Sir tells me to be quiet when his woman friends are around and to not tell Ma’am. I’m a good boy, so I don’t say anything.
January 19th, 2003
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Ma’am brings a man to our house today. He wears a suit and has an ugly scar on his neck. He says his name is Boss. Boss is nice to me, but I don’t know if he’s faking it or not. For some reason he calls me “Easy”. I don’t know why he does it. My name is Iseul.
February 27th, 2003
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Boss comes to our house a lot. He always brings me nice things like toy soldiers and candy. I think he and Sir are friends. They like to talk about grown up stuff and sometimes I hear them talking about me. Sir says I’m good at listening but that I like to ask a lot of questions. Boss looks happy when he says that. I still don’t understand it.
September 13th, 2003
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Sir and Ma’am say that I have to live with Boss from now on. They say that they don’t want me anymore because I do too many bad things. I cried and said I didn’t want to leave. Sir hit me again. They packed my stuff and I went home with Boss. He seems happy and he tells me about his house while we drive there. I’ve never seen someone smile as much as him.
September 14th, 2003
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Boss’s house is huge! There’s like a million rooms inside. My new room is a lot bigger than the one Ma’am and Sir gave me. A lot of people are always there but I don’t mind it. He lets me stay up as long as I want and I get to go places with him. I like Boss a whole lot.
September 19th, 2003
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Boss teaches me a lot of new things. He also shows me his special guns he has in his safe. He says I’m never allowed to touch them, but I can look as much as I want. He even tells me that my questions are good and I should always want to know more about stuff. Sir and Ma’am would never let me ask anything so I’m really glad Boss lets me.
September 20th, 2003
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Boss takes me to get my hair cut. He said my long hair makes me look like a girl and people might laugh at me. I don’t like when people laugh at me so I go with him. Short hair feels really weird.
September 21st, 2003
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A lot of people came to the house today. They all looked at me funny. Is it because of my new haircut?
September 29th, 2003
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Boss took me to a friend’s house. His friend lives very far away and I fell asleep on the way there. His friend’s name is “2IC”. I don’t think that’s his real name but I don’t say anything. He has a son named Adel. I’m afraid of him cuz he likes to look at me weird. Boss makes me stay the night at their house even though I don’t want to. But I want to be good so I say ok.
September 30th, 2003
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When Adel and I are playing in his room, he doesn’t talk much. He only tells me what to do. I don’t like when people tell me what to do. I tell him to stop it but he ignores me. So I pushed him on the ground. But Adel didn’t cry like all the other people I hit. He hit me back instead. We ended up getting into a fight and 2IC had to call Boss to come pick me up early. I was afraid because Boss didn’t look mad when he picked me up. He was smiling.
November 10th, 2003
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Boss has been teaching me even more new things. He says that if someone doesn’t do what I tell them to do then I should force them to do it. He even said that if people ask me questions I should always know the answer.
March 1st, 2006
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We’re going on a trip to Spain. I don’t know Spanish that well but Boss says that it won’t matter since we’ll only be there for two weeks. I just say whatever. Business is business.
March 3rd, 2006
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Boss and I went to some kind of party that one of his Spanish friends invited us to. It was on a big boat. It was kinda boring since only older people were there though. I just drew stuff to pass the time. I don’t know why he brings me with him to these things…
March 4th, 2006
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Some kids came up to me while I was outside today. I didn’t understand a word they were saying but they looked angry. One of them even tried to kick me. I ignored them but they just got even madder. One of them called me a “puto”. I know what that means. I beat two of the kids up and went back inside. I don’t know what I did to make them angry before but they have a reason to be now.
March 7th, 2006
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Boss left me at the hotel by myself today. The TV channels are in Spanish so I just read the books I packed. My favorite ones are The Tale of Peter Rabbit and Corduroy. I think I like Corduroy more though. I like the pictures more than the words.
March 11th, 2006
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We ended up meeting with some guy named Leo. He’s kinda ugly but don’t tell him I said that. He’s also really fat and talks loud. I don’t know if he can even hear his own thoughts up there in his head. Boss always tells me to never think badly about people but I can’t help it. He really is a stupid guy!
March 12th, 2006
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Boss left me with that Leo guy today. He has two daughters my age and I could tell they were related because they are alike in almost every way. Their names are Melanie and Patricia. Melanie was really annoying and tried to get too close to me. Boss said I’m not supposed to hit girls so I just ignored her for most of the day. Patricia was okay though. She’s really funny and didn’t make fun of my name. Apparently I’m her friend now. Her words not mine.
March 13th, 2006
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We went to church this morning. Boss told me it was a special day. He said that I was getting baptized today. I didn’t know what it meant at first but Boss told me how it works. I was really excited. I like church. All the other kids say it’s stupid and boring but I don’t see how.
March 19th, 2006
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We’re finally home. Thank God. I missed my room and my friends at school. But for some reason there’s a new man living in our house. His name is Kang and he’s really tall. Boss says that he works with him and won’t be staying very long so I shouldn’t worry about it. Other people have stayed at the house before so I don’t care.
March 22nd, 2006
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When I got home from school Boss wasn’t home. It was really strange since he’s always home to welcome me back. Kang was there instead. He looked at me weird and tried to send me to my room. But he’s not Boss so I didn’t listen. I went into the backyard to play instead.
March 29th, 2006
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Boss is almost never home and when he is he doesn’t talk to me like he used to. It makes me sad….
April 1st, 2006
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I don’t know what I did wrong. All I asked was if Boss was doing okay. He hit me. He’s never hit me before. I don’t know what I did but he looked so angry….and sad. What did I do? I’m a good boy right? At least I think I am. I do my homework and everything....so why did he hit me?
April 2nd, 2006
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I’m afraid to go out of my room. What if I get hit again? I don’t like it. I don’t. I’ll only go out of my room if Boss isn’t home. That might work. Wouldn’t it?
April 5th, 2006
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Kang came to my room today. He tried to talk to me but I didn’t respond. He talked about random stuff like his family and some stupid story about a lucky bird. I don’t know why he wants to talk to me when there are other grown-ups he could be talking to. He’s strange.
April 8th, 2006
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I ran into Boss today. I was so scared that I cried. I thought that he would hit me again but he told me that I should pay attention more and walked away. Maybe he hit me on accident before?
April 14th, 2006
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I was wrong. He did it again. I wanted to show him a picture I drew for him but he ripped it in half and pushed me. My picture must have been really bad. I should practice more.
April 20th, 2006
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I got kicked in the shoulder today. All I know is that I was reading a book in my room and then Boss came in and did it. He didn’t even say anything. My arm is starting to hurt now. I think I’ll take a nap.
May 10th, 2006
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I get hit a lot now. It doesn’t really hurt as much as it used to. It does hurt to write, though. I’ll try to write more but it’s painful so the words might look stupid.
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Damn this book is old! Looking back I was a pretty lame kid. Who the hell writes in a diary nowadays? I really shouldn’t be talking about myself though since I’m writing in it again. But I don’t really know what I should say. My life is boring, to be honest. Maybe I should write what’s happened over the past few years?
Well for starters, I found out why Boss randomly started hitting me when I was younger. Apparently the police knew way too much shit and I guess he needed someone to vent his anger out on. I should be disgusted by him for hitting a kid, but I can’t. He raised me as his own son for so long that the good overweights the bad, y’know?
Sooner or later I had to be moved somewhere else because Boss didn’t want to risk the cops finding me. When I say somewhere else I mean somewhere FAR. I ended up living with Kang for a while….in China. It’s insane, right!? Imagine moving to a country you knew NOTHING about. I didn’t even know a single word of Chinese or anything. It took a while to get used to and the food was weird, but I got a little lucky since Kang homeschooled me.
I stayed there for about two years before Kang took me back to America. (But don’t ask me to speak Chinese. I don’t remember shit.) It was a weird experience….kinda like visiting the US for the very first time. I couldn’t identify anything. I eventually asked what happened to Boss. Turns out that he had to go into hiding and nobody knows what happened to him. I was tempted to look for him, but I decided against it. I don’t like to dwell on the past anyway.
Nowadays I just kinda do whatever I want now that I live by myself. I have a “real dog” now too! He’s still a puppy but he’ll get bigger. His name is Tevis. I don’t know what happened to my toy dog I named Tevis, but I think the real deal is way better. (Even though he doesn’t listen to me I still love him.) I try to stay out of trouble but it doesn’t work very well either.
Anyways, this entry is getting pretty long and my hand hurts. I think I’ll end it here. If someone other than me is reading this book and I end up losing it or something, you can keep it. I don’t really have any reason to keep it when the memories are still fresh and will probably stay that way until I’m one of those pervy old men. (Hahaha I can just see it now!) So, I guess this story thing ends here! If I actually manage to keep this book and find it in the future maybe I’ll start writing in it again. (I hope not. I’m lame enough as it is.)
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